The personal development work that I have been doing on myself as a result of my life coaching sessions is challenging some of my beliefs and causing me to question my behavior. It is a difficult process as it throws me into a state of confusion. In my mind I had all of my ducks in a row and now they have been scattered by several gun shots.
Even topics that are (seemingly) unrelated appear hazy to me. (Look there are probably some other factors for my disheveled state, but I feel this introspection is the main upside-down turner)

I have seen this in myself many times before when I've questioned my life and thoughts (and I will see it again and again in the future). Over the last couple of years, life has dealt me a few growth opportunities, but, I haven't deliberately undertaken a process of challenging myself for quite a while, and I think that that has been detrimental. I have stagnated somewhat and it is time for me to up and move on. I am somewhat disappointed that I left it so long, but at least I am on the forward path again. I suppose everything has it's time.

It is not a pleasant task to seriously scrutinize oneself and see tendencies that you would rather deny existed. But one needs to go through periods of pain or discomfort in order to grow. On the other side there will be a gift. At the moment it is just a bit like trying to unwrap it without tearing the paper.

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	bruno logreco 12/10/2008 4:04:44 AM
	Oh yes, the part where learning the truth about self hurts. Reality sometimes sucks but the truth is liberating
	Lance 12/10/2008 4:33:37 AM
	Hi Juliet, I'm in the throes of that right now - this whole idea of personal growth. And it really does make us question ourselves. Why we do the things we do. What is it that really inspires us. When do we really feel joy. I recently went through a visioning experience, requiring me to really be "real" with myself. And while there was good that came out of it, there was also some stuff that, when I answered honestly (that can be hard) - made me really look deep within myself and question "why". It's a journey for me, and always will be... It's refreshing to hear your honesty in what you've written here Juliet, thank you.
	Giovanna Garcia 12/10/2008 9:14:22 AM
	Hi Juliet What you are feeling is normal, you are finding you new comfort zone. Once you are use to it, this new way of life will be normal to you. One day you will look back and think the old you is uncomfortable. Keep going, you are growing. Giovanna Garcia
	LifeMadeGreat | Juliet 12/11/2008 7:40:07 AM
	Hi Bruno - freedom, that is wonderful Lance - I would love to hear more about a visioning experience sometime and what it involves Giovanna - I like your comment about the old me being the uncomfortable in the future. Thank you
	Alex Fayle | Someday Syndrome 12/11/2008 7:42:56 AM
	I push myself all the time when it comes to personal growth. Or at least I think I do... In reality, I get all excited about something, go along steaming ahead and then slowly slip back into old habits. I then come to a complete stop, do something to charge myself up again (often it's a minor freak out followed by frenzied planning) and then off I go again. I guess you could describe my personal development as a wind-up toy.
	Evelyn Lim 12/11/2008 7:48:09 AM
	Hi Juliet, I've been through dungeons of hell (for the lack of a better word) when I started working on myself. Yes, it was a time of emotional upheaval. However, when I emerged from the intensive work, I realized that it was all worth it!! I've never been happier since! I believe too that one cannot hope to coach others if one does not first go through some form of deep introspection. We need to work through the layers of negative emotions or the letting go of our ego-centered minds. It's awesome to feel free!! At the same time, I recognize it is a journey...there is more that I need to do. I wish you luck in yours!
	LifeMadeGreat | Juliet 12/16/2008 3:34:30 AM
	Hi Alex I was thinking. Maybe you actually need those stops? Perhaps it would be an idea to relax into one of them for a bit and see what you find? Hi Evelyn I think it is really important that you mention it is a continuing journey. We aren't all upheaveled and then perfected, never to introspect again! Juliet